pennysocean's Blog

yay monday again :(

weekend was blah... my special k diet is over (i did lose 3 pounds...) now using a new cereal- this kashi viva which has a TON of fiber, so im  hoping it will keep me full :)

made my country mix, was totally rocking out to that this morning on the way to work..

oh boy its wednesday. i stayed home sick from work yesterday... my throat was killing me! then at about 2 am tuesday morning my glads were completely swollen! the size of tennis balls... i went to the doc. & got a z pack- im not back at work completely clogged & cant really hear what is going on... which is a good thing.

HATE being sick but at least i slept and spent the day with Murph all day. Hopefully today will go fast. I need to enter some data, create a new results assessment, and do another results assessments... so i think it will go fast, even though it may be boring.

I am not glad i got sick, by no means, but it will help me to cut down on food calories lol!

(im not myself today, hopefully tomorrow i will feel better )

i like sleeping in the cold. when i was up at school in Boston i had the windows open in the winter with the fan on- i dont know why but i would pile blankets on top of blankets to sleep under... its just so comfy

i have a tendency to run warm... i am always hotter than others

i dont eat red meat- not for the animals, just b/c my first bf ever (i mean like 3rd grade) his mom didnt eat red meat so i then i didnt.. but since then i think i ate a hot dog once and got sick, so no red meat for me

i do my own laundry and buy special detergent for my darks... yes, i wear a lot of black

im short, but dont like wearing heels (the no comfy shoes thing) but i dont mind my height, im about 5ft 2 (on a good day).

i love ancient egypt... i cant tell you much of the history but i am fascinated by it, i have a 2 part encyclopedia type on hieroglyphics... which is where i shall find inspiration for my next tattoo

i have 2- both in places that you cant see in a wedding dress/business suit/or a t-shirt and shorts.. thats my personal criteria... and NO, they arent in any "private" places either

i wear mens deodorant... i like it

my fav. outfit is black yoga pants and a comfy tee.

i dont wear too much make-up. ive only worn mascara 3 times in my life...

i learn by doing. i like having some hands-on act while learning...whether it be writing it down- like taking notes on a video or putting what i have learned into practice

i like guys sweatshirts... always a couple of sizes bigger and for some reason... always more comfy

my room is painted teal similar to the tiffanys color, but i HATE when people say that. i own NOTHING from there and NO thats not why i painted my room this color. I just genuinely like it

i wear silver/white gold... no yellow. all my jewelry (the few pieces i wear every day- that i never take off) are sea/beach related.

i like to read the nutrition facts or ingredients on every day things... like a shampoo bottle.

im not OCD, but i do have certain things that get done in some order.

i have all the mcdonald happy meal figurines from madagascar 2 (i believe)... those penguins are hysterical!

i can keep going on and on about my life- not that i think its great but its a nice release sharing these quirks...

this is me: im clumsy, not really clumsy but sometimes i spill my drink. Outside of work, i do not like capitalizing my i's. so i apologize if someone finds it annoying.

i apologize way too much- i have a good job (especially in this economy) but do not like it b/c it is boring. i didnt bust my butt to graduate in 3 years to be working a job that a highschool student could do. I do like that i was given the opportunity to be the face of the company through 2 programs... which is a great career opportunity/resume builder

i love my dog murphy- hes a havanese... i love him too much. i just wish he was more affecionate and would sleep on the bottom of my bed (ive never had a dog that was allowed to do that- when murph comes up he just steals my socks, wherever they may be)

Im so drawn to individuals who have suffered from an eating disorder, my thesis was on pro-ana and the web (i got to do it for sociology- so thats a plus)

i really want to change my lifestyle, im kinda boring- i get home from work make dinner and usually watch some tv/read, or until recently- i now go on this!

when i do watch tv its usually scrubs, or house hunters, or i do love those shows "i survived", "escaped", "intervention", "obsessed" etc... things that are interesting to me.

i should be stuyding for my gre's and going to grad school for psych (clinical or otherwise), im just lazy and need to get MOTIVATED

ive always wanted to play the drums.

I drive an old 1999 ford explorer- its my baby- tough cookie :)

i have never drank soda in my life- or anything carbonated- EVER so no beers or champaigne for me, even though i do like the song champaigne from 311

i have odd taste in music, i can go from carrie underwood to taking back sunday or skindred... only a select few songs from the latter

I want to live life UNA VIDA- but im afraid, i always feel like something is holding me back. Sometimes i just want to get on a plane and go to europe with a small bag and some essentials, i mean now is the time to do it right? before the family & kids?

I do plan on having a family & kids, dont get me wrong, but i feel like i have already met him and hes left my life... but i was just thinking about it- the harder the heartache, the better it heals when you do find the one... right?

I smoke, drive to fast, consume too much wine (when i actually drink) for my own good.

sometimes i really do just like spending a night relaxing at home, i dont always have to go out on the weekends!

i love to drive, drink coffee, and wear flip flops- yes i am one of those people, but this is b/c no shoes fit me. i have a hard time finding comfy shoes, so i wear flip flops

I cry when i see a happy couple on tv, not out of hate, but out of jealousy, i dont think i will ever have that

well this is me comming clean for now, im sure ill update again... with a little more of my life!

made up with my friend from work! SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT<3

Making some dinner now then just probably relaxing and watching a movie... maybe taken? or gran torino?

HMM

I cant wait for the weekend- 3 day gym membership & shopping, i have no clothes anymore

I just really want to know why people do certain things. ive been reading books about the subconscious and intuitions but WHY and are there different reactions in different situations?

i wonder...

i would love to go and investigate "haunted" places. We have an old closed mental hospital by us on the island & i dont know why i am fascinated by it...

I wonder if there are such things as ghost tours?

The day is over! Nanny came home from the hospital and i did a great job this morning :)

I liked being busy & stressed, the days went by faster. i think i may just jump right in and start to study for my gres... except i dont remember any of the math! I guess that is what practice is for.

today was an ok day, didnt flip out or anything, even though at the doctors office i was so impatient. i cant wait for the weekend to catch up on my sleep. Maybe i should just go to bed asap when i get home from work and wake up earlier? would that seem normal?

Should i even bother to try it? i was thinking of a 7pm bedtime with a wakeup time of around 4... that could give me the incentive to get my ass to the gym or to work out..

i should really start listening to my tony robbins cds again, they helped me to a certain extent. Maybe i should start from the beginning- since it has been about 6 months.

I cant believe in 2 months it will be a year at my job- that year of my life is gone and i have no new experiences or excitement to share.

:(

have to facilitate tomorrow... first time... probably not the last

at least its a great resume booster

tired today... my friend from work still isnt talking to me. not sure why at this point but since it has been going on for over a week im not going to be the first one to cave in and apologize for nothing.. theres nothing for us to even be not talking about. But everything must be their way and i will not tolerate that. I havent cried over it so its not really impacting me as much as i thought it would. Maybe b/c a friend wouldnt do that?

Im ready for the weekend again- plotting vegas plans for the fall :)  should be fun!!

I just want to get out of my house, but i want my little man to live with me. SUCKS! i could never live in the city b/c he will not be let out during the day time. Unless i find a great dog walker- which i doubt will be cheap (which is really anywhere -not just the city)

Well... time to do some intervention watching... HOPE TOMORROW GOES WELL!

had a dream about him last night... WHY? its over a year and i'm still not over it...

:(

First of the month again- hello functional department meetings & monthly reports.

Tonight i must practice practice PRACTICE for my presentation...

My horoscope via newspaper: You will mesmerize everyone with your unique outlook. You should spread the word around about something you are doing and gather interest and support. This is an ideal time to promote, present and pursue a creative venue. 3 stars